Written for your birthday
I still remember that in our first month together I had some fear; I did not know what to expect or how we would face life. We both brought home our experiences, the advice of many, our anxieties, and the expectations we created together before or wedding, knowing they could change. We started building a relationship not defined by societal molds. We are creating our own culture at home in which every place is occupied by the both of us; I know you feel so comfortable cooking that I often see you dancing in the kitchen. The breakfast and coffee you leave ready for me each morning are my companions in thanking God for your life. You surprise me and make me laugh not only because you are creative with words, but also in how you show love and generosity. We shall continue building a culture that represents us, that is both hospitable and authentic. Let us continue imagining things differently, and erecting under new dreams and values
We are learning to celebrate day-to-day and to see God there. Since we married life on earth has not become easier nor has the country we inhabit become less violent, but by standing together the reality of an active God who is present everyday provides hope in the midst of pain and weakness. Our 9 months of living together have changed my perspective of life. I understand better and I am able to experiment the profound love of God. My common expectations are becoming not anymore defined by perfectionism, but more by love and life’s beauty. We have also not conformed to this world, as there is something flourishing from us that invites us to lament, compassion and action; we do not know where that will lead, but we ask that it will lead us courageously. Now I think in plural, and I guess there is something innately divine in that, as I surrender a bit of my selfishness, and think of you; then it is easier to think of others… I know you enjoy a tranquil evening, a chai tea, a good move in bed, to talk abbout the world or writing poetry.
Life is better at your side; it is richer, more abundant and different. I never thought that the fundamentals in our pantry would be coffee, milk and bananas, nor that it would be so important for me to receive a kiss from you every morning, but I like it. Love transforms us and has done something in me in little time that I hope to understand later on. Since I am with you I know myself better and even though you bring the best of me, I also discover other things that hurt which require healing and accepatance in order to live life more fully. We have learned that we need to remember rest and actually do it. Both of us, as sons and daughters of our generation, have our identity linked with what we do and we do not know how to stop in the midst of the violent speed of everything that never halts. We are learning to disconnect ourselves from work, to be human, together, and to rediscover the natural rhythms of life, letting go our desires for control of the future, with less fear, more love and greater faith.
Fortunately, this opportunity to grow in love, trust, compassion, forgiveness, generosity and service start with you and besides you. I have the occasion of extending all this grace to you, to receive from you and to –together- embrace the world. I would not want to do it with anyone else. I love you.
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